Author Description

This is my journal to my X, it was originally letters but I knew in my heart I just couldn't send them. I wanted to and if it wasn't for my friend Elizabeth, I would have because I was not sane in the beginning. They are raw and emotionally filled. If you don't want to hear swearing or sexual discussions, don't keep going. Keep going ONLY if you want real, raw and deep shit. This is for all women who have been hurt deeply by a man, used for sex, money, a place to live, or anything which rips at our self-esteem and disintegrates self-love. This is for all women who have been with a man who has a toxic mother in the background, which does not allow you to have an authentic relationship with your man. This is for all women who have been manipulated and lied to! I get it! It feels like anger, it feels like pain, it feels like you can't breathe and worst of all it sometimes feels like you want him back. It is okay, you're human, you're allowed to feel all those things one at a time or all at once. Just remember to love yourself first and love yourself more. Remember you are worth more than lies, more than manipulations, more than cheating, more than money and more than being second to a narcissistic, controlling, toxic mother.