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Some people have certain events in their lives that they do not want to talk about and get angry with someone who asks. In turn, they end up living in their past, and that will reflect their behavior toward others. They may try to show that they have a handle on their lives, but in reality, they are dying a slow, painful death in which they feel that they have no future and just want to die. This is where they develop some type of mental health problem, and as they live in this torment, suicide may be the only future that they may want. I started to develop depression at a tender age of twelve, and for eight years, I never knew that I had this type of mental health issue until I was raped at the age of twenty for the second time. From the age of twenty to twenty-three, I lived in a dark place mentally that I do not have a lot of memory of the time. I thought that I suffered for the first eight years, but for the last three years, suicide was always on my mind, and I almost did. But God came to me in a form of one of his servant and saved me. It took me a few more years for God to cure me completely. It was when I was working with homeless youths when I was redeemed by God, and finally, He directed me on my journey to the Warehouse Mission and only then I realized that I was redeemed by Him. It reminded me when the Israelite was on their journey to the Promised Land, a trip that should have taken them eleven days took them forty years to complete. I learned not to live in my past but with it, and now I am teaching others the same. This is my testimony about God's love and how He can use your past as a means to preach his gospel of love.