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In 2015, I went to Canada to pursue a new way of learning and mindset. I was very excited to be "assimilated" into this new culture. However, everything did not go as well as I expected. I was not sophisticated enough in English to fully understand the classes. Huge cultural difference made me unable to fully engage in conversations with other Canadian students. Meanwhile, in my entrance year, mandarin classes were not offered so I was even gradually losing my abilities in speaking my mother tongue. I was overwhelmed by the panic that my mother tongue was "rotting in my mouth". I felt confused and helpless because I realized that from the bottom of my heart, I did not want to be assimilated. I wanted to preserve my culture and my background. Therefore, I started to seek for things that can help me connect to my culture. One day, I was organizing folders and books I brought to Canada and I found Analect in my drawer. Written by Confucius, the book is known to be the "origin of Chinese culture". In order to be more connected to my culture, I started to read Analect and discuss the ideologies with my Archaic Chinese teacher. Although I have learned some sayings and ideologies from Confucius since primary school, the words in the book have never seemed so powerful to me. His ideologies just came alive in front of me and I could see him teaching his students and working on the etiquettes with his students. I was impressed by how much my country was still preserving this culture. Confucius gradually became a mentor to me. Whenever I do not know how to solve problems in my life, I try to refer to his sayings and follow them. Sometimes, I cannot remember, so I always open the book and flip to the page I am aiming for to read the saying again. One day, I was chatting with my younger sister. I asked her if she have learned some Confucius's sayings at school. She said yes, but from her description, I did not feel her affection towards Confucius and his ideologies. Since my sis